I guess the reason I am so nervous is because I (along with most people) have a fear of rejection. I get sick to my stomach when I think about the holistic review process - everything I have done these past four years is being judged.
What makes it worse is that I made the mistake of looking back at my essays (Note: NEVER open your essays after you submit them. You don't want to try it.) In addition, in order to compensate for my lack of a strong application, I have been looking at past statistics so that I can feel better about myself. Yup, I give you permission to call me crazy.
As long as I don't get deferred (possibly the worst decision, in my opinion), I will be content. I poured my heart and soul (and brain) into these applications. I have no regrets. I just want to move on with my life towards bigger and better things - snowboarding, Senior Dinner Dance, graduation, traveling the world over summer break. Ah, but for now, all I can do is wait for one more week. I'll keep you guys apprised.
I completely feel you. I applied Early Decision to Wash U, and I am dreading the 15th and, at the same time, wish it could be tomorrow. I have not made the mistake of looking back at my essays, as I've heard that that's just not a smart thing to do. And I agree with you on the deferred thing to. I would rather be rejected from Wash U than deferred.
ReplyDeleteI wish you good luck for the 15th bro!